friends and expectations

I would always say...blessed are those who expect nothing and they shall not be disappointed, and I try my best to live this in most of everything that happens in my life. But sometimes I don't succeed very well and that I find this is easier said than done. Last Tuesday, it happened again when I felt really neglected because I have not been hearing from a friend I cared about. Suddenly, it seemed that our friendship was important only to me. It's not a new feeling, but this time it felt real. In the past, I would ignore the questions in my mind...after all, I had no expectations. This was an accidental friendship and I was just happy that I found a friend who I felt understood me. But as the years go, I feel from my point of view that the friendship is beginning to fall apart. Maybe because now I have expectations while my friend continue to have none?

But a friendship is like a seed... it is planted, it is nourished, it grows roots before it can survive. Friendship if it is to survive must not be taken for granted. I very much want to keep this friendship but I can't do it alone...unfortunately, it seems that I am on my own.

I hope I'm wrong...that I may be reading more into the actions than what is really there...

I hope :-)